By Accident On Purpose

While making bitmap pattern swatches to include in my stylebook, I unintentionally created a few colorful examples of the Hermann grid illusion. For some reason I assumed that this scintillating optical could only occur in black and white with gray dots at the intersection. I was obviously wrong, and I’m pleased that going rainbow is also an option. Although… I now realize that this probably doesn’t amaze anyone but me.

Also, you probably shouldn’t look at this image if you are prone to seizures.

[dih-jekt] vt, dishearten

Blogging everyday is a dejecting experience. Don’t get me wrong! I have plenty to say, and I do plenty of work (and a lot of play). I just don’t know if any of it is important enough to share**. I want this blog to be a testing platform and forum of polished ideas. My goal is to have everything reorganized by the end of March. I want a clean, consistent, and stylish web presence… from my portfolio (main site) to this blog.

** More self-doubt. Obviously. But don’t take it wrong! Self-doubt is not the trademark of insecurity or neurosis. It’s the signboard of a critical thinker. I question myself. I challenge myself.

8-Bits of Information

“8-Bits of Information”
April 2009; October 2011
repurposed floppy disks, electrical tape
book, concertina fold
3.5” x 3.5”

This book explores the planned obsolescence in technology by repurposing old floppy disks into a book format. The book is unusable, as the content (the black discs that are contained in floppys) is “unwritable” and “unreadable.” Eight of these discs are used, a reference to early 8-Bit technology. The nature of obsolescence is therefore twofold — old technology is used to create a nonfunctioning novelty.

Rosalynn Stovall

Savage Kid in Cartoon Land

“Savage Kid in Cartoon Land”
Performance (Experimental Video). Stills.
February 16th 2012

 

Boredom… This is why I never get anything done. I’m always messing around. These selected stills look interesting enough, but the actual video is terrible and overly erotic. I would never show it to anyone. I’m compelled to delete it. The plastic eyeball is my new favorite toy!!! I have two of them. They’re the decorations from some Halloween cupcakes, and I’ve previously appropriated photographs of them into collages/animation (“Recipe for Rubus”) and stuff… I think they kind of complete my altered-native-cartoon-land vibe.

 

Top Priorities
Grad School Decisions
Random Photog
Style Sheets
Redesign Website
Projects 2012 (5)

from my journal, today

Don’t hate me because I’m “morality” shy. If you want something to blame, you can blame literature. Will you? Ha! Your hubris! Your arrogance! I fell upon my knees at the greatness of D.H. Lawrence and wanted in vain to be him. I went mad with Rimbaud. James Baldwin taught me the waste in being ashamed. I worship Joyce, Miller, Kafka and countless other human gods who’ve translated without pretense or judgment the weight of having a soul. I would like to follow them. I would like to prove myself to them. I’ll say what I please. I think beautiful things.

Self-Regulation

For a long time it’s been very obvious to me that I need to direct my focus more. I’ve been avoiding it because I like the dopamine rush that I get from contemplating new ideas. Unfortunately, not all ideas can be completed in a timely manner and in high quality, so I had to make some important decisions about the things that I am choosing to tackle. Of the fifteen projects that I originally made note of at the beginning of this year, I’ve decided to concentrate on five. The other ten will probably become minor exercises, and maybe even be assimilated into the larger five.

  1. scanner art + collage =  animation = frame-by-frame (sequential images = time design + narrative)
  2. collection =  prose poetry + vignettes = (beautiful detriments) x (word play + imagery)
  3. broadsides, webzines = research x (mindmaps + flow charts + outlines)
  4. animation = pixel art + polyhexes + texture + pattern
  5. posters, popup book = womanhood + erotica + grotesque body + body horror

The scanner art idea only popped into my head on Sunday (blogged about it on Monday)… but it seems so interesting and time consuming that I want to pursue it full force. Note my excitement on Facebook… and also the development of my initial idea:

http://filmjourney.weblogger.com/2010/02/04/yuri-norstein-in-los-angeles/

 

A Short List of Concerns

  1. Digital art using traditional media. And vice versa…
  2. Mimic! Manipulate! Modify!
  3. Digital art as fine art. Maybe.
  4. What’s does that even mean – fine art? Tish tosh. Posh.
  5. Why bother? No choice. First thought. Second Nature.
  6. Illustration, animation, and graphic design. Definitely. Books, too.
  7. Word choices reveal insecurities. Word choices distort goals.
  8. Figurative + Conceptual = Perfection
  9. Experiment until your brain bleeds. Then implement the cause.
  10. Study, study, practice. You never stop learning how to see.

The Archives | “Purity Test”

I have been looking at past work for clues to solving my (digital + traditional media in graphic design) problems. One solution is scanner art. The following image is not one the standard high resolution flower compositions*. I was going for minimalism, and I want to achieve delicacy with this idea. I like the simplicity of wet paint**.

How far can a technique like this be taken? What are the applications? Could it be used in animation? Time design? I don’t know yet, but I’m thinking. I’m thinking. Wet paint can be manipulated with each scan, and wet paint can even be manipulated as the image scans. Of course, I want to do something figurative which mean mastery and skill… which means trial and error first. I have to experiment. I should be experimenting now!

"Purity Test," November 30th 2008

* Lab Notes: Those compositions (hi-def floral fantasies) often remind me of memento mori, except the use of plastic flowers and technology invokes feelings of the opposite — immortality. These compositions with their artifice and beauty highlight the permanence of human invention and mimesis, especially with the use of technology. Technology reminds me that obsolescence is sometimes only a plan. That last statement can (and should) render my entire argument circular. Of course. It’s the plan!

 ** Wet Paint?! That seems much to messy for continuous use. Maybe tiny pieces of paper would work better. That’s fitting with my collage and paper craft roots.

The Source

Whenever you identify your preference for one thing over another, people are apt to ask you why you do so and they often refuse to accept “I don’t know… It just comes naturally” for an answer. It is their way of testing you, to see if you have actually contemplated your position carefully. Consciousness, after all, must be gained. If you have considered things, however, you find that the answer is usually organic and it snaps into place like kismet or eases into decision like an epiphany might do.  So all things considered, it is appropriate that I have chosen a discipline (digital art) that is not respected by the haughty purveyors of fine art. Digital art is in its infancy and it hasn’t gained those proverbial chops that only time and diligence can grant. It is a discipline that is still considered an auxiliary novelty and that must earn authenticity. It will. Through trial-and-error. More and better all along the way.

I don’t gravitate towards lesser art forms because I have unsophisticated tastes. I gravitate towards lesser forms and processes because of their naivety and because I associate that naivety with honesty and because I think that honesty is what art is all about. Not to give us an explicit lesson but to show us the parallax of our perspectives. To explore the subjectivity of truth! Relativism! A connection must be made: It is for much of the same reason that I like to place things in tangential context. I’ve talked about it before, explored it (sometimes heavy-handedly, I must admit). Ostranenie! Magnify the ordinary and reveal the strange! “What does the thing really say? Does it say what you thought it did? It’s a little different over here, huh?”

I want to always see the intrinsic value of the Other. I am the Other. We all are. I just want to make that clear. It is only appropriate that I use the discipline of the Other to do that.

RANDOM PHOTOGTheory and Practice Graphic

This is the last post before February 12th 2012. I am taking two weeks to rethink the design, nature, and organization of this blog. I also want to emerge myself in a few projects, because “to talk about a thing is enough and to do a thing is better.” When I return, I’ll probably begin by discussing the specifics of why digital art is the perfect medium to explore my experiences with defamiliarization and individuation.

Although I will not create regular posts during my break, I’ll probably update the blog with other random artifacts… I’ve been thinking that I should transport my portfolio here. I may create a special gallery with old art:  Drawings! Photos! Collages! I don’t know.

Mongrels of Preservation, a concern

“People want tangible art. They want to take the image and the experience of the work with them. They want to place it in their homes.”

Where does that leave digital art? As prints? Isn’t that bastardizing the medium? Won’t digital prints always seem inferior to etchings and engravings? After all, hitting CTRL + P on a keyboard lacks the quality of craftsmanship and manpower of rolling out a print and waiting for it to dry. Even with the application of computer skills to screenprints, digital art takes the second seat and becomes incidental.

Archiving computer media cannot be left to merely photographing the work, because a single set of images cannot capture the true form of some digital work, especially if the piece is interactive. CDs and DVDs are more reliable, but for much of the same reason may adulterate the mood and tone of the experience. I suppose if there is a virtual program that a playable disc version of that program will suffice, but this also seems to be an illegitimate archival tactic. Technology is capricious and cruel when it comes to up-to-date and out-of-date. There is planned obsolescence in everything state-of-the-art. Besides, a disc is so impersonal and distant. Anything can be contained on it.

However, the impact of a drawing, painting, or sculpture is immediate. You see it. You know what you are going to get when you see it. It is the thing you are getting. It is the thing in itself! The same can be said of performed, installed, and simulated work. Immediate reaction. But then again…

Contemplating the latter three disciplines, I find an answer. Computer art that cannot be mastered as a single image is like all other art forms that share that quality. It is an experience, and it is a transient one. More can be said about the stipulations and ramifications that come in being classified this way, but I’m too tired at the moment. Maybe later.

But I’ll leave you with this thought: This world is becoming more virtual and less corporeal. I wonder what the antiques of the generations after us will look like in the year 2200. I imagine that long after the handbound and leather clad books that we now praise as high quality artifacts have turned into dust, our scions will collect and praise the jeweled-cased and paper-sleeved discs of now questionable work.

POST SCRIPT

  • On thinking about how I am ashamed to print my digital work, the future of digital art within the fine arts, and the preservation of such work. I seem to be in love with a bastard medium/discipline. That is so appropriate that I find joy in it. I feel like a regular maverick!
  • Also to consider: Using digital processes to create art versus using digital processes to display art or doing both… And something about being the new all inclusive, the new frontier… And something about earning authenticity versus always being a novelty.
  • I need to concentrate the nature of my concerns to digital imaging. The inclusion of other digital art forms seems to jar my focus. And maybe that’s a clue. The variety and accessibility of methods is not a detriment. It’s an advantage, the characteristic that will maintain the cause. I think that I have belabored the point. For someone who believes that nothing truly can be preserved, I sure am gungho about making this medium indelible. Talk about facing one’s own mortality, huh?